I Used to Want to do Big Things for God

Okay hear me out before you freak out.

There was a time in my life (namely, a few months ago) when I wanted to do BIG things for God.

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I wanted to be a speaker at BIG conferences.

I wanted to impact a BIG number of people.

I wanted to make a BIG difference.

Big, big, big. 

But that’s not what I want to do anymore.

Before you think I’m crazy, keep reading.

Before I say anything else, understand this: I do not think that there is ANYTHING wrong with wanting to do big things for God. Nothing at all.

However…

That’s all I wanted to do.

The big things.

I had in my mind what I wanted to do for Him, and I wanted Him to make that happen for me. I wanted God to make MY will, His will. (News flash, that’s not how it works…like ever)

I wasn’t going to be content with doing anything for Him other than what I had made my mind up to do for Him.

And that right there, is where I went wrong folks. 

I wanted to do the big things for Him, but why would He trust me with big things when I wouldn’t even obey Him in small things?

> Talking to someone sitting alone at the cafe.

> Giving away my coffee I just bought to the homeless person outside Starbucks.

> Discipling a friend who needs help growing in their faith.

The list of small things that the Lord has asked me to do goes on and on.

But you know what? I either chose not to obey Him or didn’t even hear Him because I was SO focused on the big things I had in my mind that I was going to do for Him someday. I was ready! And willing! To do what I (emphasis on I) wanted to do…

So now I have completely changed my mind. I no longer want to do big things for God. Now, at some point in the future, if He opens up doors for me to big things for Him, I will LOVE that, and may all the praise and glory go to Him.

But in the meantime, that is no longer where my focus is.

I want to do small things for God.

I want to obey every single little nudge He gives me daily.

You know exactly what I’m taking about. It happens every day usually more than once that God lays something on your heart. Something small.

Those are the things I want to do. I never again want to quantify works for the Lord like I used to do. Because in reality, there is no big and small.

There is only obedience and disobedience. 

Colossians 3:23-24 are some of my favorite verses. I’m sure you’re familiar with them:

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.”

Notice that that verse says “WHATEVER” you do. Not “the big things.” Not “the small things.” Every single thing we do should be done for the Lord to further serve Him and expand His kingdom. And every time He speaks to us, we should JUMP on what He says with everything that is within us.

So, I don’t really know all of what the Lord has for me. I’m not sure exactly where He will lead me.

But I do know this, I will earnestly desire to do every single little thing He asks me to do along the way beacuse no act of service is small in His eyes.

The big things I wanted for me have now changed into the small things He asks of me

If you don’t get anything else out of this blog post, get that. Read it again.

The big things I wanted for me have now changed into the small things He asks of me.

And I encourage you to recenter your way of thinking around that same thing. Quit looking for the next big thing, and instead, practice obedience in every “small” thing. 

Read on. 

~ CB

 

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